9.25.2008

Que Sera Sera
Its fall... campus is buzzing, I am thirty years old... Regardless of how scary it feels, the future is coming and though we can't control it we do what we can to make it the best.

I was always the guy who had his life planned out... well lots of things changed. I changed my major, I changed my career, I moved, I did many things not on my list and life has been good. I have always been blessed with good fortune despite my sometimes horrible decision making skills.

So what am I trying to get at... I don't know. I guess in the midst of wedding plans, talking about buying a home, trying to figure out how to get to Novali's soccer games.... my mind wanders back to past ambitions and thoughts of "Is this the next step?". Do I want to do more consulting and push that part of my career? Or do I focus exclusively on IUSB and in building my career here? What happened to thoughts of Law School? What happens if Heather finds a guy she likes more who happens to be her height?

I was never much of a "Que Sera Sera" kind of guy. Well Heather and I saw a house... fell in love with it... and after three weeks of going over and over it we have made an offer. I love the house, but you know what I can't help but think... maybe it isn't the right thing? I guess I will know when we hear back from our agent right?

I came up with a line a few years ago that I use when people ask you the ,"Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" question. My reply was designed around having changed my major but I guess now it revolves around having changed my life to meet my environment. My answer is usually:

"Five years ago if asked that question it would have put me someplace complete different than where I am right now. Right now I am completely happy and looking forward to the next step of life. So I guess in five years I want to be happy with myself over what I am doing and knowing that I am making a difference and that its the right place for me."

Usually you can tell the interviewer wanted an answer about how I really want their job. How I will be an awesome employee and make a difference in their line of work. Then I see them realize that I will be those things because I made the choice to apply and if they make the choice to hire me it will work out. I have several great stories about jobs I didn't take and employers who didn't take me... and I look back happy over the outcome.

I guess this blog is me letting off a little stress about life and also just sharing a little something about me. I end each blog saying that I will write more... which doesn't usually turn out to be true. I guess I will write more when I am ready to would be the correct sign off.