I realized, that like everyone else on social media, I always want to post the perfect picture. I think it is why I posted so little this year. After my knee injury I stopped running, so no more running pictures. I changed jobs and honestly not sure what pictures to post of my work from home non-profit start up job. Kids don't really like posing for pictures as much. I didn't want more pity posts about my knee, or things that weren't going "perfect". Lately people were asking why I wasn't posting like I used to...
Then break ended, and I didn't post. Cause its not perfect anymore, no one wanted to go back to school, honestly I didn't want to go back to work, and it was all just hard. Personally, professionally, with my family... nothing felt perfect enough to post.
Reflecting on New Years, looking at the camera roll on my phone, I realized so many non-perfect pictures that I could share. Why do I feel the need to always just put the perfect picture forward? What filter do I need on my life to make it worth sharing? Ha... well I laugh, but it's true.
Man 2021 was a hard year, coming off 2020 which despite the pandemic was maybe one of my best years. Not a good year despite the circumstances, but a great year. My oldest was home from college for nearly a whole year, I spent more time home with my kids in one year than maybe in the previous ten. I did house projects I had put off for years. I got my Datsun back on the track. So really 2020, was a great year. Is it maybe what made 2021, and the non-perfect things, worse? I don't know.
What I do know, is that I, and we all, need to just start being more real. I think we will all feel more real. We can be real about how we feel, what we want, where we are going, where we aren't going... Ah.
So I cruised my camera roll and I thought I would share the two pictures here on this post. The first... chores... yeah the glory is in building the Lego cars, its not in the cleaning the heat registers in the toy area looking for missing pieces (we vacuumed up 3 lego men, several nerf bullets, lots of random toys, but of course not the one we were looking for). The second picture is my maybe 10th attempt to customize a Hot Wheels Datsun 510 Wagon... I been waiting for it to be finished, to look perfect, and let's just say at this point it is a foregone conclusion that perfection will not be reached.
So what is the point of this blog? Is it just another excuse about why I am not posting enough? Ha... well maybe, cause you know I couldn't think of the perfect thing to write. I never make NYE Resolutions, and I am not now either, but I am saying that in 2022, I will have much less focus on finding perfect pictures. I will try to spend more time enjoying the process, call my mom more often, pass the time with things I enjoy, and trying to lose less Legos.